Hello Again Blog O Mine

Hey Blogosphere...I must admit I have been MIA lately. Facebook and the 140 character appeal has pulled me away, but here I am on August 24, 2010 writing a note to add to my never ending diary of some shape form or fashion. So what is up? Well, Randy and I went to the Global Leadership Summit this month. August 5th and 6th to be exact. I will never miss another one. Ever. Life changing? Yep. Probably saved my life, literally. How do you describe it in words, well, as Luke says about Big Stuf and what it did for him, there are no words, "it is a just a Big Stuf thing."
There are a million phrases I could quote as this was so rich in content, so meaningful that at times it overwhelmed me, but just giving them out is like pulling threads out of a tapestry. It doesn't work. Let me just say that I learned that I was living life WRONG. I was mistaking busy-ness with being a servant. I was performing 24/7 and not taking the right kind of breaks to restore myself. As a result, I try to die every February. I am not training for the life I live. I am not taking care of the core, the physical side of my being and therefore, I have no foundation. Now this is not about willpower (we only have 5% willpower by the way) and it is not about shame. It is about scripting your life. What do you see and where are you physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually and do you have any balance? I was way up in percentages spiritual, mental and emotionally and at 8% physically. I was living life at the expense of my physical wellness.
So I changed. I wrote a different story for myself. Like a tennis player I will perform and at a very high level, but I will also recover. I will fill my energy well throughout the day, not charge through my day, head down, start to finish and need three days to recover from three days of work. I want more, I need more and I owe God and my family and my friends and my patients more than that. What is my life sentence? "She helped babies and children eat safely and with joy." "She loved her God and her family with all her heart." Next question, "Are you better today than you were yesterday?" Answer: Yep. Just one more rung on the ladder, one more turn of the wheel to fuel the places in my life where I want to excel. To restore, renew and reflect. I have a goal of 60 days without wavering to add this discipline to my life and internalize it. That will be on October 7th my wedding anniversary. I am also going to change doctors and try to figure out how to prevent my yearly respiratory Chernobyl in Feb-March. I am also going to put power behind my goals and never say "I am going to try to do___" instead I am going to say, "I am going to ___" and then do it. Step by step, rung by rung, turn of the wheel by turn of the wheel, 5% better and then 5% better again. Until I reach my goals. Then I will set bigger goals.
Randy and I had a really good time going to the Summit together. We moved to Hope Church and boy, is that a church with the right name. Hope. Randy is involved with the music program and answer to my prayers, he has been asked to play in a couple bands. He loves this and once he settles down and stops being his worse critic, God will fill in the rest. It makes my heart smile to see the journey he is on. God is so good to remember our dreams.
Luke has a girlfriend that he adores. I am happy that he is happy. He has to have surgery on his shoulder on September 2nd. Please pray for him. I hope all goes well. Anesthesia and Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome are not the greatest combinations in the world. That is the scary part for us.
So life is good right now. The other day I was so struck by my blessings that I got down on the ground face down and thanked God from the bottom of my heart for making the path straight and asked Him to be with us on the days He allows it to become crooked. Ever done that? if not, I strongly recommend it. I thank Him for walking beside me, holding my hand, lifting me up, correcting me when I waver and being my Abba. He is my constant companion and dearest love.
I hope you are all well. My friends are going through rough times right now and periods of change. I wish I could make it all better for them. I can't. I don't like change, I crave routine and comfort, but change brings opportunity and growth. There was one quote from the Summit that always will stay with me, "The One we serve does not stand still, He does not leave us where we are"...I like that, even though it scares me a bit.
So I need to sign off now and go to work. I have 12 hours ahead to open my hands and my heart to others, pause and reflect, restore and renew. Hope you do the same.
Later BlogO'Babies.