Change is here...my 2010

It has been a while since I have been on my blog site. With Facebook, Twitter and texting, I have been busy. I have a book to write, but I just can't seem to get into it yet. I think I will soon, but for now, I am going to write so I can look back at this and see in my blog/diary what happened in 2010.

2010 has been an unusual year, a year of change for me. More than usual change and I am a creature who seeks comfort and contentment. I know that I serve a God who requires more of me than that and He has allowed changes to come this year. January started out with me feeling really good, I was running and feeling strong. Then I traveled to San Antonio to teach a course and I was still ok until early February. That is when I got sick, really sick, to the point that my world stopped as I know it for six weeks. Had some really scary side effects to meds (ventricular tachycardia is scary)...I had a big cardiac work up and realized that I am allergic to most things in this world. Returning to work and catching up was a long process. I don't know if I ever felt back to status quo and unfortunately I never got back to my routine of working out. Just when I would start, something else would happen and I chose to hug a pillow instead of pound the pavement. I also still felt like crap. I was thinking life was back to normal and then things changed again, my Michelle, my dear friend and clinic coordinator, took a job in Jacksonville. I was so proud of her and this job would be a huge new challenge for her, she couldn't say no. So most of the spring was a sad goodbye. Work is good, but just not the same now without her. Thank God Janet agreed to take us on. She has kept me going. We have great people to work with, but I still just miss my friend. Michelle and I are like sisters. Some days I barely see Laura at work. I don't laugh like I used to and laughter for me is key to survival.

I like how God gives you a change in scenery and I am not complaining, just observing here. This has still been a year of great accomplishments. Laura and I spoke at two national NICU conferences, I am seeing more out of state patients all the time in clinic, we are writing book 3 and PreChaining programs for premature infants are getting a lot more attention. We are all coming together in clinic in doing some excellent work. I feel us all developing our skills even more than before and I am still learning new things ever day. I am so grateful for my team and the entire peds/adults team at the Mill.

Then in June and July, things changed again at work. Cardiac rehab is joining us at Koke Mill. This meant that I lost my treatment room. I have no home right now. That makes it very hard to run a clinical practice. I am pretty stressed, been so busy, but I have been pushed out of my comfort zone. I have sensory processing disorder that is getting more challenging with age. I need walls people or a dark room to swing in once in a while. This is hard for me on many levels. But the good part is new people are coming in and we can make new friends. We can offer more to people who need help. I get to spend more time with our wonderful staff at the Mill and being the person I am, in the middle of all of this, I decided to take my friend Laura and create yet another new variation of a program at work. In the middle of change, I reached for more change, decided to go with the flow instead of fight the current. We will see if we need our heads examined or not.

Meanwhile on the home front, I also see things are changing with Luke. 17 years old, The Boy is growing up. My dog is an old dog now and I guess that means that I am no spring chicken either. :) This year, Randy and I heard a call from God to make another change and we left our church family at RCC to move on to serve at Hope Church. We love RCC and I tell you, this one was tough. But we continued to feel a tug and knew that for us we needed to be brave and make a change and hear what God was saying. It is hard not knowing that many people but I am already finding some clues to what God had in mind. I am starting to meet people that I know that go to church there and I am feeling God making a place for me. RCC is like our old dear friend and now we are making our way on a different path. Randy is so thankful and more than a bit intimidated to play with the wonderful musicians out at Hope. Music is everything to us. I love seeing him have this opportunity to grow. Yes his hands hurt, he has pain, but he loves this and when he stops being worried it will be great. I hear him practicing and I know that this is an answer to my prayer for him. Now Randy and I are going together to the Global Leadership Summit on August 5 and 6th. I felt God give me a bit of a kick this time to do this, so I listened. I really feel something major coming out of this. I feel we are where we are supposed to be.


Now the most recent shot to the heart, one of my dearest and most creative, green friends, my other half, my Lisha, is considering running away to Florida. Rip, tear, that is the sound of my breaking heart. I want my friend to be happy, but the number of people who love me isn't that big to start with and now one true friend may be hitting the road. (Yes Lish, this is a guilt number)

That is all I am going to say about that. Fraker and Hart, Fraker and Hart...no Fart? Now it is just going to be Fraker? Lish you are I were supposed to change the world, remember? Oh the power of the palm tree.

Yep, Change is here.

"There is a tide in the affairs of men.
Which, taken at the flood, leads on to fortune;
Omitted, all the voyage of their life
Is bound in shallows and in miseries.
On such a full sea are we now afloat,
And we must take the current when it serves,
Or lose our ventures."

It will just take me a while to find my smile.
What am I going to do today? I am going to go run. I got off course a bit, now it is time to get going again.